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Hello Mikaluvs <3 and MFFT Fans!!!
This week has been horrible for me :(. I've been sick since Monday. I have a sore throat, headache, body aches, chills, etc. I feel this was God's way of letting me rest for a couple of days and think of my next moves.
I have been in a real deep funk for the past couple of weeks. Some good things have came out of it like I will be modeling and acting soon, probably be starting a new job in May or June and also my daughter will be going to New York for a modeling competition. Some bad things like I probably didn't get a position at my current job for the second time I applied for and me just wanting to leave my job altogether. My heart is not in it anymore and I would just rather take a leap of faith and leave and do what I really want to do.
This blog first and for most is my therapy. I'm not a singer, songwriter but I am a writer. Writing makes me happy. It gets me through the day when I'm sad. It's been a week since my "big brother in my head" Prince died. I'm still heartbroken. :(
Earlier I was listening to "Sometimes It Snows in April" but today it was raining...It wasn't just my tears this time. I just want my life to be the way I feel it should be. I just turned 39 and yet I feel like life is at a standstill. I'm not happy and I've been real depressed. I know God is making changes but it seems like it's for everyone else and not me...We shall see...
SMOOCHIES
Mika
Hello Mikaluvs <3 and MFFT Fans!!!
This week has been horrible for me :(. I've been sick since Monday. I have a sore throat, headache, body aches, chills, etc. I feel this was God's way of letting me rest for a couple of days and think of my next moves.
I have been in a real deep funk for the past couple of weeks. Some good things have came out of it like I will be modeling and acting soon, probably be starting a new job in May or June and also my daughter will be going to New York for a modeling competition. Some bad things like I probably didn't get a position at my current job for the second time I applied for and me just wanting to leave my job altogether. My heart is not in it anymore and I would just rather take a leap of faith and leave and do what I really want to do.
This blog first and for most is my therapy. I'm not a singer, songwriter but I am a writer. Writing makes me happy. It gets me through the day when I'm sad. It's been a week since my "big brother in my head" Prince died. I'm still heartbroken. :(
Earlier I was listening to "Sometimes It Snows in April" but today it was raining...It wasn't just my tears this time. I just want my life to be the way I feel it should be. I just turned 39 and yet I feel like life is at a standstill. I'm not happy and I've been real depressed. I know God is making changes but it seems like it's for everyone else and not me...We shall see...
SMOOCHIES
Mika
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